Well here it is September 27 and I am not in Santiago. Nor does it look like I will be there anytime soon. About 4 months ago I was starting to feel extremely overwhelmed by all I had to accomplish before leaving. I had to force myself to take a step back and realize there was no way I could get it all done before September. So my plans though still officially on the books, don't have a specific date.
In my 20s I made some very catastrophic mistakes with my finances. And even though I am done taking care of those mistakes I am having to fix the fix at this point.
My biggest goal right now is to pay off one CC by the beginning of November. I had to set mini goals to get there but the plan was in place. And then I had car problems (yes again). It seems that my lot in life is to have car problems. So the mini goals have been adjusted, and with those adjustments I hope to pay off the CC by the end of the year.
I won't lie about how this is making me feel. I feel craptastic, specifically about this. I feel for every step forward I am take about 15 in reverse. I feel like there is no progress and that this is gonna take F O R E V E R (read that in the voice from the kid in the Sandlot).
If I am supposed to be in Chile, fine... But if this is somehow the only way the Lord knew to help me get out of debt, well then I am probably gonna be a little pissed. I am grateful that he loves me and wants me to not be in debt but honestly I actually WANT to go to Santiago. Hell even if it just for a vacation.
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