Best epiphany EVER!

I am a people pleaser. I go out of my way to make sure everyone else has what they need. My mother says I do it even to the point of my own detriment. I would agree to a point. This however is not my epiphany. I'm getting to that. Somewhere in my life I learned that if you are going to share or if you are going to help someone you either give them the best, or give it your best. That is what I do. It is part of what makes me "me." If you need me to get over my shyness, tell me you need help, and shy Angie walks right out the door. It is like making sure everyone else is doing ok makes me feel ok.

Now to the epiphany. I don't need anyone's approval but God's. I know that sounds weird. And I am sure you are wondering what one has to with the other. So let me try and share the thoughts that are running through my brain.

Because I take care of people, ie people pleaser, I somehow feel I need their approval. Don't ask me why I wired that way, it is what it is. But I am starting, for the first time in my life I might add, not to need anyone's approval. I live the way I feel I should. I don't do drugs. I don't drink. I don't sleep around. I don't judge others or their lifestyles.

For the first time ever, I don't care what my Mom thinks. No let me rephrase that. I care what she thinks I just don't let her ideals of what and who I should be get in the way of who I really am. Same goes for my Dad. And as for my wonderful Sister, her approval used to be the one I needed the most.

However not anymore. I just don't have the time nor the desire to worry about what anyone else has to say or think about me. It's like I finally got the confidence that I wish I had in high school. It only took me an extra 20 years to find it.

So let me say this on a closing note. If you feel like the kid who takes care everyone, please just don't forget to take care of yourself. Remember what Pink said: "you are perfect just the way you are."

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